In this time of change I’ve been forced to go deeper within. To get into the nooks and crannies within the root of my actions, my emotional reactions, my triggers and how I respond to them. Absorbing what’s going on externally had me down mentally and emotionally depleted for a lil while.
It seemed to have taken the focus off of my spiritual journey for a moment, taking me back to a barrage of memories, emotional experiences that I never talked about bc it had become the norm. In all actuality, it led me right back to my path.
Over the last 4-5 years I learned how to maneuver within the storm, to find joy and contentment in the midst of chaos, to rely on the strength of the Creator of all creations, the strength that is reflected in me that fuels my hope and renews my faith on the daily…well moment to moment now.
Those past experiences really prepped me for this present sense of time and space. It taught me how to regain and maintain my focus on the life that I journeyed here to create. It showed me the difference btwn what my ego craves and what my soul requires to keep me mentally, emotionally and spiritually sane and protected energetically.
Learning myself, my fears, my needs all over again bc I really have the time and space to dedicate my energy to just that without feeling guilty. Reevaluating my values, readjusting my ideals on the type of partnerships I desire in my space. Some would say I really been goin thru it, which, in a way, I have (it doesn’t matter that everyone is bc this post isn’t about them atm) but knowing there is a greater purpose to it all has been the guiding light leading me thru this particular storm.
Finally getting to this point of really feeling complete just as I am, despite the fact that there’s always more healing to be done. Regardless of the connections I seemingly have lost or experiences Ive missed out on.
I am worthy of all that my soul desires bc what I desire is what we are deserving of. A life of health, of wealth, of love, of peace, of prosperity, of unity within our selves, our families and our communities. A life of justice, of order, of balance, of harmony. A completely liberated existence as we work thru the emotional experiences according to our unique journeys.
In short, I am exactly where I should be, I am all that I came to be, I have all that I need when I need it. I have accepted that most connections are temporary and growth specific. I have renewed confidence in all that I do, the way that I move bc I am fully aware of all that I am and that alone, makes me worthy in the eyes of that which Created all things; Perfected in our imperfections, we deserve the space to spread our wings and fly according to our distinctive journeys.
We are worthy of greater things than our eyes can see presently. You only must believe.
