I really shouldn’t be entertaining these idle thoughts buuuut here I am 🤷🏾♀️
You’re still slowly being released from my mind tho you’ve been out of sight for a while now.
I’ve let go of the disappointing memories but the sparks that zipped up my spine when I looked into your eyes is taking a little longer to dispel and of course I’ve had to figure out why lol
As I’ve said many times before, after taking a deep exhale… Life… the pieces to this puzzle never fails to prevail over the hopeless romantic ideals that I once held.
The excitement of just being near you, that was once forcefully burned out has reignited thanks to my wild and expansive imagination, not to mention the recent reclaiming of my entire life.
The depth of our conversations and new psychological stimulation plagues my thoughts on the daily, still to this day I wish I had been a lil more mature to enhance our exchanges.
For you, it might’ve just been another “easy lay” that you seriously wasn’t interesting in allowing but upheld your innate chivalry while entertaining my indecisive and confusing behavior. You will forever be appreciated for that.
It took some more digging to get to the root of the depth of our connection and tho I haven’t pinpointed exactly which past life you seen me real live naked in, I’m convinced that your presence in this life was to assist with me learning one of the hardest lessons of my first 29 years of living:
Understanding Platonic love vs Passionate romantic love and distinguishing a clear line between the two. The only one ima get into.
The feelings that arise when I think of you are filled with a different type of ecstasy. One that doesn’t exist in this dimension but lifts me up as I fill with inspiration and that damn tingling sensation. No worries tho, I’ve learned how to tame and redirect that energy to cultivate something much worthy of the expense of positive frequencies. You were a thrill to experience and I truly hope you’re living your best life even without me in it 😏😜
