I just hope you know
How deeply youve touched my soul
And if this is the end of the road
that we walk together
May it be the slowest pace
That outlasts the stormiest of weather
I’ve made peace with my demons that sent you fleeeing
Still your presence is all of what I’ve been seeking
Nonetheless, I’ve relinquished the need to try to control the outcome
I want you around because I feel something familiar in you
But I hate how my triggers got dumped all on your doorstep
And how my oblivion had me expecting to still be welcomed in with open arms
I’m not a sorry person but I hope my apologies are heartfelt
I let my fantasies get away from me
Hoping that, since, in you I see me, that you’d see me too
High hopes string up heavy disappointments that leads to awakening something deeper, something stronger
Bc the love that I am keeps me from staying in that empty space for too long
Now I see how some things are just for me to work on
You were all that I’ve dreamed I’d become eventually
Now I see, just as I’ve come to love the imperfections that make me up perfectly
I also have to embrace the imperfect reality
That all that we seek won’t always be
what we imagine it could be
All that we desire won’t always meet us where we wait
And even if we go for it, somethings will forever remain out of our reach
And that’s okay
It’s necessary for each of our journeys either way
That’s why letting go of what I hoped it would be is the only thing left for me
To do away with the excess
Bidding You a farewell that I still hope never comes to fruition
but I’ll keep on pretending
Keeping my heart open
Just in case you turn out to be everything I’d hoped you’d be
In the end
—lovingalways.
